Now and then, I catch myself focusing solely on my list of things I need to get done and forgetting to actually enjoy the day that I'm currently living. Yesterday was absolutely one of those days. I woke up and immediately started ticking items off of my list. Get in my workout. Start the laundry. Make my list for the grocery store. Even the everyday tasks like eating, showering and putting on makeup felt like another item on a list. But my mood changed when I walked into the grocery store. I was fully prepared to walk in, zip through my list and hurry home to finish the laundry, do some more cleaning and make dinner. But then I small, simple bouquet of daisies changed my state of mind.
Their bright, happy colors standing alone in an otherwise empty bin caught my eye. I debated simply sniffing them and walking away, but then I thought to myself "Why? Why not get them for myself?". Truthfully, the thought just rarely crosses my mind to truly do something kind for myself. Why can't I make my own day a little happier, a little better instead of expecting someone else to do it for me? Because honestly, I'm very guilty of that. If my day is bad or even just a day with an endless to-do list, I expect someone else, usually Adam, to be my source of happiness. But why? Why should I wait on someone else when I could do something simple like buying myself flowers to make my own day a little better?
They're just a small, five dollar bundle of daisies. But looking at them in my shopping cart made me slow down and even enjoy the trip a little more. Bringing them home and putting them in a vase, I decided that the rest of my list could wait. I opened the windows and my back door to let in the sunshine and the fresh air. And I decided that I'm not simply going to wait around for the sunshine to find me when the days are long and tough or mundane. I can provide my own.